tide and sea

the tides that were mine relinquished in you,
you got the zest to move on,
while your peace shattered my exuberance, 
i am not blaming you, peaceful little one,
you were settled and just needed a nudge to flow,
while my chaotic energy was to be its own demise,
i am looking at you from a distance, 
perhaps a little proud too, like a father is of his daughter, 
but then i am not so stupid enough, 
to pretend that i made you what you are,
its just that, in the dank enormity of my life,
you still are the light that sometimes fills my senses